Angst is soooo overrated. Take a nap, Mom.
The (Biggest) Hiss - Anxiety:
One of the best things about this vacation has been how relaxed I've been. Until recently, I was waking up feeling refreshed and looking forward to all the great things the day had in store. I even looked relaxed - my skin was tanned (as much as my Northern European ancestry permits), my hair was longer and curlier than it had been in years (the word "mullet" comes to mind), and my clothing choices were comfortable, if not bordering on vagabond.
And then, a week ago, I decided to get my hair cut so that I would look slightly put together for the wedding I attended last Saturday. And it was as if everything changed. Going back to my "work hairstyle" seemed to signal that it was time to go back to work, or at the very least to start stressing out about it. Since then, I've been experiencing increasing bouts of panic as I come to terms with the fact that I will be the one in charge starting August 17.
It doesn't help that there are still major issues up in the air...like my license. Everything is happening at a snail's pace because it's summer, and despite doing things in what I thought was lots of time, I am still waiting on a number of important documents that are required for me to work. And I have only five business days left until my first day of work. Aaaaaah.
(Please be patient while I go and vomit.)
The Purr - Reading:
The biggest thing I need right now to keep myself sane is distraction from thinking about work (and from hitting refresh on my email program to see if anything is happening with my license). Enter reading! As I previously blogged about, I just finished reading Gretchen Rubin's book "Better Than Before". I also have her book "Happier at Home" sitting in my to-read pile, but for a change of pace, I've decided to start with Barbara Kingsolver's book "Animal, Vegetable, Miracle". This book tells about her family's journey of moving across the country and trying to eat locally for a year. I'm only one chapter in, but I'm loving her writing style and her exploration of all the issues (environmental, economic, health) related to what we choose to eat.
There are so many more things that I want to read! I have a giant stack of books from the library on my coffee table, plus a list on Goodreads and another list in my iPhone. I need more hours in the day!
What are you reading this week?
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