This week was my first week of call since I wrote my post about how to not hate call so much. (I've been on call for 21 of the past 42 days. Too much call.) As the week approached, I tried very hard to say no to anything but the most essential of activities. I deferred dinner with a friend until next week. I said no to doing anything with my Mom. I was ruthless with turning people down.
And then the week arrived.
Monday night a group of medical school friends whom I only see a few times a year were getting together for dinner, and I couldn't say no.
Tuesday night my girlfriend's parents invited us over for a birthday dinner.
Wednesday night a friend was visiting from Egypt and wanted to meet for dinner.
Thursday night we decided to go see a new house that had just come onto the market.
Friday night was trivia night at my girlfriend's church. And I love trivia.
Over the weekend, we have seen three more houses, gone out for breakfast twice, gone for an impromptu coffee with my Mom and brother, watched my niece in a volleyball tournament, shopped at two craft markets, seen Romeo Dallaire speak, and gone for another birthday dinner with my girlfriend's friends*.
I apparently am incapable of just saying no to anything. If it sound remotely interesting, and especially if it involves food, I am there. Regardless of how tired or extroverted out I may happen to be. Regardless of how much I need to just be quiet and still after the stress of a call week. Regardless of what I say in my blog posts.
And yet...somehow this week worked for me. I gave myself the option of saying no to things, but when it came time to exercise that option, I never wanted to. I got to do a lot of fun and interesting things with people whom I love over the course of the week, and it felt pretty good. I'm not quite sure why it was okay this time when it wasn't the last time I was on call, but somehow it was. Maybe it was knowing that I could say no to things without guilt? Maybe it was only being on call for one week and knowing that I would have a long stretch of recovery afterwards?
I haven't the foggiest clue, but I'm very glad it did. And I'm hoping that it will continue to do so when the next stretch of call comes around.